Night Light

all lyrics by Trummer
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01. focus
02.let go
03. be mine
04. one night
05. the key
06. baby are you hiding
07.sit it out
08. who needs a goal
09. if this is love
10. so long
11. all this time
12. sleep baby sleep

01. focus
the powerlines are black against the glowing streetlight fog
and the rooftops disappear in misty blur
i’m standing on the corner with all my senses open,
could be nowhere else right now but in this world
fingerprints on wineglasses and ashtrays full of talk
about what’s waiting still and what’s probably through
about chances, consequences, the line we try to walk
and we have loads of words but we don’t have a clue
i ain’t looking for solutions in my head or in my heart
i ain’t looking for redemption or a bandage for my scars
life in focus is all i want

i’ve had a dozen good beliefs that i was praying for in vain
still the verses in my song depend on rhymes
i’ve had a hundred good ideals that my life put on the stake
and nothing worse to do but give another try
and i know i might be stupid to keep waiting for that train
but i ain’t standing at the station with closed eyes
and every other minute life keeps enterring the frame
and turns away or picks me up or just goes by
but i ain’t…

02. let go
so you quit another chapter and you turn another page
leave behind another lover that didn’t matter anyway
from coffeehouse to coffeehouse the papers have been read
from bar to bar and friend to friend the nightly stories have been shared
you know a bunch of local winners and they all know your name
you admit that you’re a sinner, they mistake you for a saint
you still don’t really smoke much so you don’t intend to stop
you know the good girls and their boyfriends and you’re good at messing up
needs to be done
here’s to moving on!
so let go and go
you better let go and go
it’s time to let go and go
let go and go
before it’s gone
keep writing songs for long lost love while your new ideals rise
full of sad appreciation for the lines around your eyes
old friends turn back to jesus or another holy name
and you’re stuck in the job you accepted for a change
your plans and your dreams got messed up a bit
so suddenly you find yourself stuck in the safety net
take some time off society’s slavery
cuz you owe nothing to pride, but everything to dignity
needs to be done
here’s to moving on!
so let go and go…
needs to be done
hre’s to moving on!
i’s time to let go
in the mirror i see
just a shadow of me
so let go and go…

03. be mine
there were times i thought i’d had it, on the rooftop once again
with the endless sky above me and the end of time beneath
then i smoked and thought it over, the senselessness of things
and nothing’s just as empty, so i climbed back down again
so be mine, if you want it
be mine all the way
be mine, honey
be mine, if you dare
to be mine
it’s a question of measures when you’re justifying hope
so you and me together will kiss with both eyes closed
all the broken hearted angels on the rooftops once again
like you and me together, will go on all the same
so be mine&
every night of love and hope’s another bloodstain on our blankets
may the found and lost be worth the cost
may something begin to matter
so be mine&

04. one night

in this room again, in this mood again
i know this pillow, i know the scent
smells like clothes on the floor, soaked by the rain
a cup of tea steaming beside the bed
at the break of dawn you lie there asleep
and me awake, just to watch you breathe
one night with you
one night with you and then die
one night with you
me out on the porch, morning sky is grey
people walking by just like everyday
and then back inside and then back to bed
you’re gonna have to go as soon as you’re awake
i’ve been thinking `bout the way things used to be
somebody show me how to stretch minutes into years
with you
one night with you and then die
one night with you
and i’m not gonna hold you back
i’ve said all the things that had to be said
so if you’ll ever understand
you know where i am

05. the key
careful, sister,
had to learn to hurt you
and changes keep on coming, so i will
looks like we are captives alone in thin skin
so, careful
i can touch you still
‚cause i hold a key to your life
And you all hold a key to mine
And it’s getting heavy now
careful, brother
i did not mean to offend you
it’s just the way that i was born
please don’t blame me
i will shut my mouth
we’ve all been talking loud too long
now i hold a key to your life&
oh so helpless to the misty ways of life
oh so helpless and guilty the same time
cuz i hold a key to your life

06. baby are you hiding
baby, are you hiding
somewhere from the storm?
i saw it when i woke up: clouds were rolling in
last week smelled like springtime
now it’s buried in snow
baby, are you hiding somewhere from the cold?
baby, are you hiding somewhere where it’s warm?
somewhere on an island or in a dark corner at home?
yeah, i used to know
now i know nothing anymore
baby, are you hiding somewhere from my love?
there were sunrays on the water
there were daffodils on the lawn
there were words i ain’t repeating
you remember them, i’m sure
your kiss tasted like springtime
now i’m buried in snow
baby, are you hiding?
i still hope you’re hiding
baby, are you hiding
somewhere from the cold?

07. sit it out

i’ll sit it out, babe
i’ve got my cohen-records
i’ve got cigarettes
i’ve got a bottle of red wine and a glass
i’ll sit it out
i’ll sit it out, babe
i’ve got long nights
i’ve got blue chords
i’ve got a pen and paper and a lot of words
i’ll sit it out
and i know i’ll be fine, ´cause i’ve been there before
i’ll feel better day after day
and i won’t see your face in the dark anymore
you’ll be forgotten, without a trace
i’ll sit it out, babe
i’ve got jobs coming
i’ve got friends to meet
and tomorrow i will change the sheets
i’ll sit it out
yes, i’ll sit it out, babe
not a boy anymore
and i’m not keeping letters
the next things, i’m told, they always get better
so i’ll sit it out
and i know i’ll be fine…
these walls are not gonna fall
these walls are not gonna fall
i’ve got all my senses focussed
and these walls are not gonna fall
if you don’t call
these walls are not gonna fall
and i know i’ll be fine…

08. who needs a goal

there’s a blanket on the horizon
for at least a month the sky’s been grey
and nothing helps, not even coffee,
i just can’t seem to feel awake
if i’m still young, then how does old feel?
bugs in my brain, warts in my face
seventy years, running ‚round down here
and then you’re gone without a trace
what do i care? the world is turning
and i’m still here and i will stay
i don’t ask why, but i keep learning
without a goal, but that’s okay
who needs a goal anyway?
no matter if i join competitions
i win or lose, i’m wrong or right
and i’m getting tired of these decisions
cuz life’s a break between nothing and i don’t mind
what do i care…
Ii have a friend, he stopped believing
said he was through with useless rhymes
he climbed back down the stairway to heaven
got a better job and bought himself paradise
there’s a blanket on the horizon
i’ve been staring at the gray too long and now i’m blue
but somewhere higher, the sun is shining
now that ain’t being optimistic, i just say what’s true
what do i care…

09. if this is love

so the story begins, here we are now,
two walking collections of memories
and we’re packed in thin skin, we’re hopeful and scarred
trying not to lose our dignity
oh, you’re waiting for a sign, i can see it in your eyes
there’s a million wrong things to say,
but there’s just one thing on my mind

if this is love
let’s build a fence around it
cuz baby love

so the story goes on, here we are now
two walking collections of doubts and dreams
we’re sleeping on roses, then we’re fighting through thorns
wondering if it’s all there is for you and me
you can try to share it all, you’ll always be alone
i’m afraid that’s just the way that we were born
and i can’t change it, but i know

if this is love
let’s build a fence around it
cuz baby love
is a fragile flower
is a precious flower
baby my love…

10. so long
autumn fire in the leaves
you were standing there in front of me
shivering in your shirt
you said: ’now go, before it starts to hurt‘
and i tried to play it cool
what else could i do
but say: ‚here’s looking at youx
you smiled sadly and called me a fool

so you want me to stay
that’s easy to say
´cause i want you to come
sounds just as easy, i know
so so long, baby
so long

car turned around the bend
i was late to raise my hand
and wave goodbye
you made me promise that it wasn’t gonna be the last time
four fillings of gas
one more pack of cigarettes later
i was home
that’s what they call the place where you sleep alone…
so you want me to stay…

so long
is it gonna be so long?
i’ve already waited so long
afraid it’s time to say so long
so long
so you want me to stay…
i wish it wasn’t so long
but it’s so long, bye bye

11. all this time
Fall from myself
Out of my line
Out of the tracks that kept me straight
Wish i could say
A couple of rhymes
On the buzz in my heart that keeps me awake
To laugh at myself
ain’t gonna help
afraid i’m gonna have to lie to you
‚thank you i’m fine
had a good time
don’t worry, there’s a shell no one gets through‘

and all this time
i know that the wheels turn
all this time
i know that the clock runs out my life
i can feel the fuse burn on both sides
all this time

I turn off the lights
I walk off the stage
You hug and me and say ‚thank you for tonightx
So i’ll keep the smile
And you’ll keep the faith
That life is a playground with free rides
I’m stuck in a haze
While you’re closing the case
Time to move on and no conclusions made
‚you don’t have to cry’you say
‚it’s not like goodbye’you say
‚i was just passing through anyway‘

but all this time…
…i can feel the fuse burn on both sides
for all this time’s chasing
the dreams wasted
on love’s tasteful promise in your eyes, baby
´cause who’s saying
that we’ll always get a another chance to try
in all this time
i got far too used to goodbyes
all this time
all this time
all my life
i can feel the fuse burn on both sides
i can feel the wheels turn all this time
i can hear the clock run out my life
all this time

12. sleep baby sleep
sleep baby sleep
i’m sitting beside you
sleep baby sleep
i’ll be waiting right here
drift away from the choices
drift away from your doubts
don’t listen to the voices that echo inside
they all left for wherever
they don’t deserve you at all
they only touched your skin
and they did not see your heart
that’s how stupid they are

so weep baby weep
i know how it hurts you
cuz me, baby, me
i’ve had my share too
i was hit by your choices
i was hit by your doubts
and it’s not just your voice that echoes inside
so cry out you eyes for the fools
who did not seem to care
and when you wake up in the morning
i will be there
that’s how stupid i am
sleep baby sleep
sleep baby sleep

night light

01. anything but straight
02. make it alright
03. oh boy
04. nameless
05. don’t worry
06. slow fade
07. point of no return
08. the artist
09. passing by
10. subway eyes
11. as you are

01. anything but straight

woke up again just like yesterday
and the world was turning on anyway
sometimes I wish it wouldn’t,
so the one little moment could last
and wouldn’t always fade from day to day,
cuz this life looks to me
like nothin’more but a chain of pointless episodes
with me in the starring role

and so I wait, every day,
it might bring up some new way
something strange, some big change
something anything but straight

same old faces at the same old places,
and the same old plans, but never made
they’re all gonna do better, they all wanna leave soon,
but I know: they’re all gonna stay,
in one or another way
cuz I’ve tried to change, again and again,
and I still carry the same old bags
I just hide behind another mask

and so I wait, every day,
it might bring up some new way
something strange, some big change
something anything but straight
something good enough to stay

oh, love has vanished, somewhere between the storylines
I saw it leave with hope in it’s hand
I’m still running and this road never ends

and so I wait, every day…
Night Light

02. make it alright
I’m gonna call a friend, we’re goin’to meet somewhere
we’re gonna talk it down ’n’might even understand

you could help me out, you could beat me up
knock me down, just solve this question why
it feels so wrong sometimes

I tried quite a lot, but still
I’m left to the hope that something will
make it alright

I’m gonna name it right, gonna face it straight
I’ll paint my eyes black so it shows in my face

I’m gonna lock the door, kill my radio
I’m gonna light one up,
I’m gonna get stoned all day long

I tried quite a lot, but still
I’m left to the hope that something will
make it alright…

what a wealthy little fucked up kid,
suffers not knowing where it’s hit
what went wrong for me?
on days like this all you wanna do
is pull out a gun and shoot your way through
to make it alright
Night Light

03. oh boy
the fire’s gone out and the cold’s sneaking in
and you’re sitting in your armchair
with a book on your knees and your sweater on
and you light another cigarette
and you turn another page and the story goes on
but some things you’ll never forget

there’s a row of past lovers standing outside your window
and they’re crying at the sky
and you’re trying to avoid the stupid thought
on how you’re gonna spend the night
while they share their ideas of how you keep spoiling things
and rather say goodbye-
oh boy
you better call somebody
oh boy
and get on outta there

and your old dad’s knockin’on the door
and he wants you to open up to talk
about the past and who he was
and what an annoying kid you’ve been,
but you’ve got nothing to say but why he never was home
and anyway, he died four years ago-
oh boy…

a windy night is passing by
and the ashtray’s getting full
another record closes with the needle takin’off
and the mosquitoes will soon be gone
cuz september kills them all,
and you’re sitting on the bedside with the nightlight on-
oh boy
is your firewood ready?
oh boy
will winter be warm?
Night Light

04. nameless
heard a lot of talk about perfect plans these days
hard to understand sometimes, we’ll dig it later
‚one day everything in the world will make sense‘, they say
ain’t it a shame that we never really get it as it happens?

we’re staring at the traces that the world rubs in our faces
and we’re waiting for someone to explain,
that it’s not in vain
and a well-placed reason makes it easy to believe
that everything is a part of the game
and we give it a name

but in my mind and in my heart, there is still a question-mark
you call me shameless
to say ‚truth is not a word, and looking at the world,
everything is namelessx

they say: ‚your ma came to town to meet your daddy at the dances,
and he died so soon and to get there too, she got cancer.x
they say: ‚God knows what to do and he’s got a plan too, it’s just hidden!x
and I turn my head away, cuz I don’t want ‚em to see that I’m spittinx

there’s not much you can say that’s gonna fit in every day
so we make a decision and we give it a name

but in my mind and in my heart, there is still a question-mark…

and it’s your decision to trust this definition
but you may end kissing a poisoned flower
and it’s up to you to decide what you wanna name ‚rightx
but you may end with a plane in your tower
with a plane in your tower

but in my mind and in my heart, there is still a question-mark…
Night Light

05. don’t worry
it was a hot week and i got sunburned
and now it finally rains
I’m glad the days got cooler,
you would have liked this for your garden
so I just had to tell you, drop a line or two
full of useless things nobody wants to know but you

but don’t worry, I’m still fine
I’ve been pretty busy all this time
I move on in many ways and I’ve learnt when to be deaf
it’s just today I heard the raindrops
and had to think of when you left

don’t worry,
it’s just the weather like back then
don’t worry,
come another season I’ll be alright again

so, how have you been travelling? is it like they always say?
with a guarantee for happiness and sunshine everyday?
did the old man show you a mirror,
and did you like what you saw?
or was it all just empty promises
and he wasn’t there at all?

don’t you sometimes have the feeling
that we threw your life away?
cuz I admit if I were you, I would have run off anyway
but don’t worry, I ain’t stumbling
and I don’t blame fate or life
it’s just today I smelled the dead snails
and had to think of your last smile

but don’t worry…
Night Light

06. slow fade
under a milky sky with sun,
I see our shadows growing long
as time beats down another month,
the snowflakes prove: the year has gone

picking up leaves from the frozen ground,
like sweet memories that echo through my thoughts
thinking ‚bout peace in her velvet arms,
as bitterness grows into a sober heart
burning it all

we’re drifting further away
it’s getting harder to say what I know now
looks like it’s part of the game
a change in the taste as time goes on
slow fade again
slow fade again

the passion has calmed, now it’s quiet here
I’m dying for a touch and she’s fast asleep
strange how we love no matter how it feels
she still makes me lonely every time she leaves
and I’m holding on like a coward

while drifting further away…

if I still hold her hand
and I still get her kiss
and I still know we love
who needs happiness?

we’re drifting further away…
Night Light

07. point of no return
woke up beside you, and you were not there
must’ve been somewhere hidden inside
there was no chance, whatever I said
could just be wrong in the way you heard it
and you said nothing, there was nothing to say anyway
it was right there in the air between us:

you’ll never change, honey, and I’ll never learn
so let’s just face it:
each and every moment is a point of no return
and I’m out of place here

we breathe like sighing, don’t you hear it
I’m just holding you back and you’re just bringing me down
cuz I’m not good for you and you’re not good for yourself
and you’re not good for me, but I just want you so bad

you’ll never change, honey, and I’ll never learn…

I won’t tell you, you would deny it
you would hold me and call me a fool
but I know better, your love is a feather
it’s rising and falling and it’s floating along
and then it’s gone, like today
when I woke up beside you and you were not there
Night Light

08. the artist
the flyer said you were pretty hip back then
that’s what’s got me comin’here today
the crowd is small and they keep talking on
while you play that tune about feeling alone

I see you sittin’up there on stage
and there’s something ‚bout every song you play
there’s a lock of grey hair that fell in your face
and I guess you feel outta place

they gonna go home and say they saw you play
You gonna sit in your hotel-room, driftin’away
A spliff not finished in the ashtray beside you
a dream ‚bout the dreams in your past that defined you

Oh man, I’d like to know, can you tell me:
Is this really where you thought you would be?
Oh man, is there something that you learned about
How long can a song replace life?

you were not good at lovin’although you loved much
but that love of your life had to stay outta touch
days in a bus between cigarettes and coffee
bloodshot eyes as a proof for your grief
‚bout the state of the things in the world
you struggle over it all, but nobody cared
they loved johnny again, they bought townes when he died
but you are the artist and it’s alright

oh man, …
Night Light

09. passing by
another year,
another october
another set of questions on my mind

often I’m astonished
of things I once said
now that the old ones are getting younger and my youth is dead

they say: ’someday your time is over‘,
but that is a lie
cuz time itself just passes, it’s you that goes by
today I woke up too sober,
with a strange peace of mind
feeling there’s no way to change these things,
so I don’t even try

another dream,
another set o lovesongs,
first the happy ones, and then the sad
now there’s mist in the morning
before the sun clears the sky
golden rays and yellow leaves are the colours of goodbye

and they say: ’someday your time is over’…
Night Light

10. subway eyes
look at those sad eyes,
you should not wear them,
what do you see anyway?
where will it take you, the subway night-train,
heading for a better day?

don’t turn your head now, I’m not starin’at you,
maybe I just care
for the story behind that beautiful sadness,
and maybe I got some to share

look at those sad eyes,
I cannot change it,
but I can offer you my hand

wiping your thin hair out of your face
you stare at the nothing outside
don’t tell me you feel well in your high heeled shoes
and what’s that make-up trying to hide?

some of us don’t fit in the suits that we’re offered
and kind of forced to wear
so if you gave me a second and looked in my eyes
you might recognise your feeling there

something ‚bout loneliness without a reason,
its just the knowledge that we’re both on our own
and if you need some time off sleeping all alone,
I have this big bed at home

look at those sad eyes
you should not wear them
I would change it if I could
Night Light

11. as you are
got your letter baby, it arrived here today
now I want you to know that you’re okay anyway
as you are, love
just as you are

and I know what bothers you, but there are things I can’t change
believe me I would if it was in my hands
because you are, love
just as you are
as you are, love
just as you are

when I think of the past,
I still wish I could stay
but I knew I’d be helpless when you woke up today
in my arms, love
just as you are
as you are, love
just as you are

don’t look at me now, I feel guilty again
I said if I ever left you, the reason I went
wouldn’t be that you are, love
just as you are
as you are love,
but I was wrong
other songs
Night Light


By the way
The dead seasons weight

interrupted (2001)
it’s been a full year since that evening when i got into the car,
sat down and turned my head and looked back at your door
and i knew i could come back here, but it would never be same
so i whispered my goodbye to a role i had to stop playing

it’s been a full year since i finally turned the motor on
and drove into the night of my future yet to come
and the stories have been plenty since, i really can’t complain
but if they asked me what i thought of , i would still refuse to say
cuz they don’t wanna hear your name again

i even went to travel and collect new memories
i cut my hair, i got a job, i found another flat to live
and i knew some girls, that was alright, two of which i even thought i loved
but when i thought it over and compared, it just never seemed enough

now here you sit, you grew your hair, you changed your clothes,
but still your eyes remind me of the sadness that we talked about at night
and i know about your guys, and that you never much looked back
it seems, when we got seperated, that was when i lost the track
and i’m still circling ‚round while i’m trying to move straight
and just when i think i’ve made it is when you appear again

oh, baby we got interrupted

and i wonder what it is that keeps me hanging on so long
i still sit here and i think, i never turned that motor on
deep inside myself, i’m still staring at your door
my lights turned red that evening when i got into the car
my lights turned red that evening when i got into the car
oh, baby we got interrupted


by the way (2001)
outside the window november mist swallows the horizon
there’s nothing moving but the smoke above the chimneys and a train or a car from time to time
and i wish i were tired and i could sleep some more, but i ain’t and there’s work on the table to be done until tomorrow
so i slap rythms on my knees and i stare at the frozen leaves
and i think: if at least i would know how you feel
and i wish for the sky to fall or any reason to call you and tell you and say:
hey, by the way, i miss you today

it’s so unbearably quiet in here and inside me i am growing these silly questions about need
about how soon and how often and how anything, oh i just wish i could turn it off on days like this
cuz it don’t bring me anywhere but further away from you, and i hate myself for getting so lost and confused over you
but instead of just thinking this fire’s enough, i analyse and deconstruct it with my thoughts
And i’m waiting for the sky to fall or any reason to call you and tell you and say:
hey, by the way, i miss you today


nightskin (2001)
you call it fate, but fate takes a lot of faith
and it is my fate, that i lost my faith
so maybe it just happened, as even shallow things do
and if you want it to stay shallow, well, i leave it up to you

i just remember the soft breeze
and the starlight on your skin that night
the way that you and me were refusing to believe
that time, it still moved for real
you felt safe, you said, and so i held you near
and now i just don’t see, what it is to me
cuz i’ve got your scent stuck inside me

the theory was nice: two people think, they want the same
and when the night had passed us by, you didn’t even know my name
we didn’t tell eachother too much, but if your eyes are a door
i like the girl, i think, i saw there, and i wanna know more for sure

i just remember the soft breeze…

if it had been just us, babe, what d’you think that we had now?
without the past in our neck and the morning right on front?
because of course that damn time was moving on anyway
and it always looks much different in the light of day
i just remember the soft breeze…

it was not just our names, that we didn’t say
we still ain’t got roles on eachothers stage
and i remember, right before you drove away
we were standing there, not knowing what to say
and then you called it fate, but fate takes a lot of faith
and it is my fate, that i lost my faith


the dead seasons weight (1999)
the smell of the sunflower out in the garden has faded, the leaves have turned brown
the cars on the road are returning back north, summer is over and gone
and i’m counting the souls, that talk ‚bout the cold, that these moments have brought to their lives
i’m waiting for silence, the days of the crisis, they’re filling the news and our minds
and we unlearned to cry

i light up a cigarette, last one that i could get, may it burn the time i’m alone
i know, if i’ll see you, we won’t deny what we’ve been through, but we’ll keep this distance unknown
it’s not easy to let go the dreams whereof i know, that, if they worked, it was just what i’d need
if you took me in your arms, if i knew that you loved me, it washed off this mess inside me
i just wish you were here

and i f i could, i would just take the next train to get to the town, where i guess you’re right now
and i would hold you as long as i could and i’m sure that the sickness in my heart would die
and i would show you the birds, how they’re going down south for the winter, cuz here it’s too cold
and i would not be afraid of the dead seasons weight, because i would not stand here alone
and i know it sounds trashy, i’m sorry, but that’s how i feel right now, i need you so